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i can´t sleep, i just can´t breathe
when your shadow is all over me baby
don´t wanna be, a fool in your eyes
´cause what we had was built on lies

and when our love seems to fade away
listen to me hear what I say

i don´t wanna feel
the way that i do
i just wanna be
right here with you
i don´t wanna see
see us apart
i just wanna say it straight from my heart
oh baby i miss you, i do…

Title: Westlife - Miss You lyrics

Artist: Westlife

Ku sentiasa mengharap kau mengerti

Ku selalu berdoa kau sedari

Andai dapat kau lupakan diriku yang satu

Akan aku terima hakikat itu

Biarpun jauh disanubari

Hatiku masih terkenangkanmu

Biar apa pun terjadi

Biar sedih yang harus ku jalani

Biar takdir mengubah diriku

Akan tetap rela ku lalui

Walau sampai akhir waktu….

There are so many steps ahead,

And there’s a very long way in my journey.

I might fall or maybe standing tall,

But i just want you to know,

Every step that i take,

Every journey that i made,

Anywhere i go,

I hope it still leads me to you…

Because i still hopeing and i still believing,

I believe in destiny.

If this waiting will keeps me forever,

"It’s okay" i say…

I’ll wait…

No matter what it takes….

i miss having someone to talk to, someone who would listen to mye every story without feeling boring or tired with it…

i miss the touch that set me free and make me comfortable…

i miss that someone who used to be so special in my diary and to my life…

i miss the prince who cheer me up and  keep me safe in my imaginary life…

i miss the sincere face and the speech that keeps me smiling all the time…

i miss the heart that miss me…

The only heart that i love and appreciate most…

i missed him the most…

Walaupun ku cuba mncari ketenangan dalam diri, mencari sinar hidup yang baru, ku hiburkan hati yang telah dilukai dan tidak mahu fikirkan dia lagi… Tapi dalam hati ini tetap memanggil-manggil namanya..Tetap inginkan dirinya,tetap cintakan dirinya… Aku buntu…

Ku tahu dia sudah tidak seperti dulu. Ku tahu aku takkan dapat melupakan cintaku pada dirinya. Dirinya yang selalu hadir temani disetiap langkah yang meyakini ku menghadapi kehidupan ini… Dia tercipta untuk ku…

Walaupun aku membenci sikapnya yang langsung tidak peduli dan ambil tahu tentang perasaanku… Namun semua itu tidak dapat menyaingi rasa kasih dan sayang terhadap dirinya…

Kenapa mesti aku lalui perderitaan ini sekali lagi?  Apa salah ku terhadap dirinya? Kenapa dia hadir memberi seribu sinar harapan lalu sampai saat ini dia menghancurkan hatiku ini??

Salahkah aku hanya sekadar meluahkan? Salahkah sekadar ingin dia tahu? Salahkah diriku mencintai dirinya???

Ya Tuhan, kepadamu ku berserah. Kepadamu sahaja tempat aku meluahkan segala yang tersirat… tabahkanlah hatiku untuk lalui liku-liku perit ini… Moga suatu hari dirinya mengerti & insafi kesilapan ini….

~Diary Hati~

Republik - Hanya Ingin Kau Tahu

Ku telah miliki
Rasa indahnya perihku
Rasa hancurnya harapku
Kau lepas cintaku

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Walaupun semua hanya ada dalam mimpiku
Hanya ada dalam anganku
Melewati hidup

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Things changed, people changed too. Things getting a lot better than it used to be and i’m very happy now.

Good friend of mine used to say " To be Old and Wise, you must first be Young and Stupid"

We can’t avoid making mistakes. Experience teach us everything. That’s something most valueable in life.

So Enjoy Life guys!

Cheerio!~~~~

Fear not tonight,

Here’s I’m by your side,

Singing little angel a lullaby.

Lonely shadow,

Goodbye the moon lights.

So, sleep love, sleep tonight,

There are angels by your side…

When I met this guy, I knew he’s the one I’ve been looking for whole life.

It was extraordinary sweet way of knowing him for the first time and like one of those I always had in my imagination. I could never forget those wonderful days of my life.

I was 18. What more can I expect?

He always told me I am his “Angel” that since I came into his life, his world seemed to turn colorfully nice and wonderful.

He said I’m special and different. He found it unexplainable of what wonderful things I did to his life. New perception, wide opinion, acceptable reasons and many things to share with. He always knows how to keep me smiling and laughing to his jokes and stories.

Somehow, I knew I’ve finally found my ‘Mr. Right’. 

Perhaps, he never knows that I felt the same towards him too. He made my fairy tales come true…

When I stared at him, look into his eyes, I felt like there’s nobody else in this world but just him and me. These might sound childish but it’s true, whenever I look at him, I always saw fallen petals from heaven all around him.

My heart beats imperfectly with no rhyme. Why? I don’t understand these kind of feeling.

I always wondered to myself, is this what they call true love???

Perhaps, I’m falling in love…

Unfortunately, my fairytale doesn’t end with “…happily ever after…”

I am now 20. Life is still a long journey, right? What  had happened along my journey is something that has been fated from God to me. And there is so much more for my happy ending…

I have imagination of you & me…

Me, you sitting on the bridge.

Our feet were touching the edge of the water.

Wind of the lake and the night singing unchain melody to us.

The chills of the night set our soul free and break the silence with joy & laughter.

We smiled at each other as you look into my eyes…

The only light that accompany us come from the hazy lantern hanging on the bridge…

But it wasn’t really dark

Coz there’s silver moonlight & twinkling stars scatted on the heaven’s heart,

Sharing along their wonderful light with you and me…

I learnt One special thing today…

“Love The Heart That Love You”

Appreciation,

Honesty,

Sincerity,

Understanding,

Caring,

Priority,

Supportive,

And

Most importantly

Loving Freely…

It’s all that count…

So, if you do Love me Truly from the Heart,

Let me know in any way.

I may not notice

But if I knew,

I would LovE to LovE you too…

~Let Love In~